So overwhelmed...

I am just sitting here feeling like I am going to have a serious anxiety attack!!! The doctor does not think that I can make it to the 24th so we have moved the date up to the 22nd, that means that my last day of work is Friday. I have so much to have done by then and I am so worried that I wont have done everything that needs to be completed. My house is a disaster because I have been sick all weekend with the Flu and Brad not only hit a deer on his way home Friday night, but on Saturday he shoved a screwdriver through his hand..so there was not much that he could do either. So today, I look at my house and it is a disaster...the babies room is not done...I am sick....my boys are both sick.....I took them into the Doctor and I am told that Bryken has a small heart mummur. So I have to make his well baby check up for March and then he has to see a Pediatric Specialist. I am so scared that he wont be okay. He is my little angel...a heart mummur is not okay with me at all...he cant have something like that wrong with him!!! I need to just research a heart mummur and get all the facts...It will drive me nuts until I know what is going on with my little angel. My kids are my world..and you just dont expect things to be wrong. I remember when I freaked when they told me that Bryken has asthma...how scary and now this.