Day 1

Today I did okay as far as watching what goes in my body as well as what I put out. I started by thinking that this was going to be a weight loss challenge but I have come to the realization that it is going to be more than that. Today's scripture that I found appealing came to me after I had a conversation with Tucker. He was watching Charolettes Web and came out while I was making dinner and started to cry. I asked him what was wrong and he told me that he does not want to die right now and he does not want us in heaven, he wants to be here with all of the trees. I explained to him a little about heaven and how beautiful it is. I explained that we will be much older and we will rejoice when we all join each other in heaven. I dread those kinds of talks with my children....I realized that it is me who really is responsible for teaching my children what the right pathway is back to our heavenly father. I found a quote, "We can not control what others choose to do, and so we can not force our children to heaven, but we can determine what we will do. And we will decide that we will do all that we can to bring down the powers of heaven into that family we want so much to have forever." **Elder Henry B. Eyring.
How true is that? I mean seriously, it is me who has to enstil this love for the savior into my children, it is by my example that they will know I have a testimony of this gosple and know how much I love them and my heavenly father. I CAN NOT IMAGINE MY LIFE without my wonderful husband, children, parents, siblings, grandparents and all the other individuals in my life. I have recently watched someone who I love dearly go through a lot of pain. I think that it is important to remember that this moment of pain is part of our plan, and she is going to grow from this situation and become such a strong young woman. As far as healthy...today I did not have ANY soda! I drank 3 bottles of water! GO ME!!! So until tomorrow...good night!

Kid Update

I took the kids, well the two little ones, in to the Doc to see where they are in growth...
Bryken is in the 75% of kids his age, he weighs 31 pounds and he is actually short LOL. I do have to say that he makes up for it with his outgoing personality. He is pretty funny and ready to go at all times. He cried when they were weighing him but when he got his shot, he didnt even cry LOL!!!
Remi is 13.1 pounds and 25 inches long...she is where 10% of babies her age are...sooo needless to say she is pretty small. She still fits into her 0-3 month pants and the waist is big. We still have her in size 1 diapers! Lucky little girl, she is going to be a petit little thing!

30 Day Challenge

So for the next 30 days I am going to be posting often lol! I have decided that I need a total body make-over and what a better time to start than now? So I am doing a 30 day challenge where I am losing weight and figuring out a little more who I am. I figure now is as good as a time as ever. Brad and I will have our 7 year anniversary October 23 and I want to look much better than I do now so...starting tomorrow it is on. I am just not happy with me anymore and so I need to take a stand and get on the ball...so good bye fat Alexis and Hello to a new healthier me....

Tuckers First Day of First Grade

Tucker is in First Grade this year and he got glasses this year as well. He was pretty excited about his first day of school. He woke up and did his mornig routine without me even having to nag lol! He looks so cute in his glasses and I am so proud of him. It seems like yesterday it was just the two of us (since Brad worked out of town so much). He has always been my little buddy and I am loving watching him grow and change into the little man that he is. His teacher is Ms. Hirshi this year, we are hoping that she is better than his teacher last year, if things are not running better by Christmas vacation, I am going to transfer him to a different school. So we are keeping our fingers crossed!!!

Tucker

Dear Sweet Tucker

What can I say about this kid! He is my little buddy! He is the best big brother and he loves his little brother and sister so much. He muttin busted on Saturday and of course picked out the biggest sheep (pictures to come). He has grown so much this summer. He loves sleeping out on the tramp, fishing with his daddy, dancing, tormenting Bryken and making faces. He could play outside for hours if I would let him. I can not believe how big and smart he is. I love that kid!!!

Shayla and the Boys!!!

We took the kids out on the town one weekend when Brad stayed in Wyoming. The boys look soooo cute in their mowhawks LOL! It was so great to have Shayla up. She was the best babysitter ever! I always had a clean house to come home to and happy kiddos. I know that they kept her busy and I am sure glad that she did it for me! I showed her many yummy recipies and she ate some good and bad (egg casserole LOL) foods haha!!We miss her TONZ!

Bryken

Bryken is his very own little self. I love that kid so much but boy IS HE BUSY!!! He is finally potty trained!! Shayla was up for 6 weeks watching the kiddos this summer and she basicully did it for me!! It was so great!! We all really miss her...Bryken talks like crazy and he is sooo silly! He loves to dance and sing. Today we were driving in the car and Remi was asleep and he said, "Sissy wake up!!" It was so cute. He is a button pusher. He loves to touch everything. I find him playing make believe all the time and he enjoys his big brother and his daddy!!

Tucker's School Carnival

I was looking through my folders on the computer and I came across some photos that I know I have not posted about! These are my fav for sure!!! Tucker's school had a carnival this summer and they had "pony rides". It was the first time that my kids actually rode a horse (sad I know). They both loved it, it was at that point and time that I realized I will eventually convince my wonderful husband to get horses and our kids can do 4-H LOL!!!

My thoughts for the day....

So I have been having a really hard time taking in the fact that we may be moving to Wyoming. I sat down and wrote a list of why it is better there and why Idaho Falls would be better. I realized that all the things that are the most important to me are:

1. Having my family together-this includes family dinner, family activities, and my own selfishness of having my husband to lay next to each night.

2. Education-Wyoming has amazing schools, and as far as my education is concerned, I can continue that in Wyoming for my last semester. Then, if I decided to go on and get my masters I can still do that as well.

3. Involving my children in things-Idaho Falls does have a lot more to offer in this area however, what good is it to my children if they do not have both of their parents there rooting them on in whatever they choose to do?

4. Safe community-It may just be because of where I work, but Idaho Falls continues to grow and the crime percentages continue to increase. I am a small town girl to an extent and I do feel that Big Piney is a safer option.

So as I looked at my top 4 reasons, Wyoming came in first..then I started to list my other pros and cons...

5. Distance-Wyoming is an hour further from our families and I hate the thought of that.

6. Employment-Brad has a great job, and I am pretty sure that he would not find anything close in Idaho Falls. Sadly, I love my job and those that I work with. I also have the opprotunity for a Probation Officer position here in the next year or so, so to leave that all behind really stinks.

7. Availability-Idaho Falls has everything that we need and want right there. In Wyoming we would have to travel at least an hour to anything remotely larger. I guess when we lived in Malad, we were use to this so we can make it again I am sure LOL!

8. Expenses-Rent and homes are much cheaper in Idaho Falls as well as groceries and other living expenses.

9-Friends-we have made some really great friends in Idaho Falls. I hate the thought of having to start over..

As I continued on with my list, I realized that the other reasons I was listing, were my own selfish reasons...they really did not include what was best for my children and my husband they just included me...This decision is so hard and terrifying. I am ready for the challenge and I think that once we all get back together, I will know that it is the right thing..right now it is just the unknown that is throwing me for a loop, and the fact that I am comfortable in Idaho Falls. Change is scary no matter what age you are, but if we do not take a chance to learn and grown, what have we accomplished?

Update on Tucker

I took Tucker to the eye Dr. on Wednesday and it turns out that he needs glasses. He has an astigmatizm which can cause headaches. The labs came back on Thursday normal for a child his age, so I am hoping that the glasses will fix his issue. I had someone tell me they thought he was acting like he was having migraines..not sure, we will just have to see. I still think that what the Dr. said may be true, that Tucker is just having a hard time coping with the separation in our family..it made me realize that now more than ever, we need to get our family back under one roof. Tucker is pretty excited to get his glasses, I think that I was more traumatized than he was LOL! He picked out some really cute black ones with square frames. I will have to post pictures once we get them on Wednesday.

Tucker

Tucker has been really strange lately and I can see now more than ever that it is SO IMPORTANT for us to all be back in the same house. Tucker is having anxiety attacks I think...or he does not know how to cope with the feelings that he has concerning his dad being gone so much. I took him to the Dr. today and he drew some blood. Tucker was such a trooper. He saw the needle and started to tear up a little and he said, "Mom cant we go to another Dr.?" He did really well...once he was all done he said, "Well that didnt really even hurt." I took him to walmart and bought him a toy! I am so worried about him!! He is my little man, my whole world!!! I just hope that it is anxiety like the Dr. said....we will know Thursday as far as labs go.